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[endoftheverse]

The other me did. [Which... ha. Makes sense. If he were the other Sam, he'd have done the same.] I'm sure he knew he had to, if he would be able to protect you from him.

[He's quiet for a moment.]

... You might not be scared of him, but... I am.

I'm terrified of him.

[It makes sharing a body with him excruciating. But he'd brought it on himself, hadn't he? He said yes. He took the challenge. He lost it, miserably.]

I'm terrified... of him hurting people around me. So the less people around me to care about, the better. Do you understand? It's me being a little selfish — but it's for you guys, too.

[progeny]

[knowing that sam, his sam, has been open about just who his father is leaves him confused. the man had been so adamant about him not telling anybody about lucifer, had even gone as far as to say that he could call him dad instead. so why would he have changed his mind now?

...does he know that there's a part of jack that actually wants to meet lucifer?]

If he...hurts people. That's his fault. Not yours.

[okay, how to explain this...]

Where I'm from. Lucifer looks. Different. He's using someone else. So. Even if he wasn't...using you. He'd still hurt people.

[any uncertainty with his words disappears as he continues. sure, explanations may not be a strength of his. but there really is one thing he's sure of-]

You don't need to protect me, Sam. But it's okay to let me try to protect you.

[endoftheverse]

[He shakes his head sadly.]

It's not that simple, Jack. I have fault, too.

I'm the one who said yes.

I'm not someone who deserves protection.

[He let everyone down. He failed, the one time he could have finally succeeed.

(Only he never stood a chance against Lucifer's light; never had a chance.)]

[progeny]

Yes, you do.

[why do words have to be so difficult? he just takes another moment to himself. some time to try and piece together what he wants to say.]

If you didn't say yes, someone else would. You. Saved his life. I know you...blame yourself. But Lucifer is the bad guy. Not you.

[endoftheverse]

I didn't save anyone's life, Jack. There's no happy ending for anyone, from my timeline.

[He pinches the bridge of his nose with a wince of pain, feeling his hold over the blindfold he's forced on Lucifer waning. Gotta just... wrap this up. Can't take too long.]

Listen — just... Keep your distance like you've been doing.

Do that, and help Cas and your Sam and Dean, and protect yourself.

That's all I want from you, okay?

[progeny]

No. You're...my family too. Even if you. Won't let me near you. I'm still going to find a way to help.

[whatever it takes. it doesn't matter what world sam is from, he's going to do whatever he can to make a difference]

[endoftheverse]

[He just... sighs softly. It's not like he feels good about it.

But at the end of the day... it has to be this way.]

I'm sorry, Jack. Take care of yourself.

[The call ends.]