Works in progress, Dean. That's kind of what we are, these days.
[He clears his throat, rubbing his thumb absently along the inside of his palm.]
And anyway, you being here is good. Really good.
I would've given up in this town a long time ago, if you hadn't come along. You can't remember me at the start, but, uh. I was — well, honestly, I'd been visiting the sinkhole practically day by day, wondering if I should just pitch myself in. I was sure you hated me, and I was sure you would've wanted it as much as I did.
But I was wrong, and... I think — even after what's happened, uh. Recently.
I think I'm getting... better.
I've been getting better.
I think if Cas had gotten to be here longer, he would have gotten better, too.
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And my presence is a good thing?
Works in progress, Dean. That's kind of what we are, these days.
[He clears his throat, rubbing his thumb absently along the inside of his palm.]
And anyway, you being here is good. Really good.
I would've given up in this town a long time ago, if you hadn't come along. You can't remember me at the start, but, uh. I was — well, honestly, I'd been visiting the sinkhole practically day by day, wondering if I should just pitch myself in. I was sure you hated me, and I was sure you would've wanted it as much as I did.
But I was wrong, and... I think — even after what's happened, uh. Recently.
I think I'm getting... better.
I've been getting better.
I think if Cas had gotten to be here longer, he would have gotten better, too.
[So maybe he will come back.
And maybe he'll be a work in progress, too.]