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Sam Winchester | Lucifer | Endverse ([personal profile] endoftheverse) wrote1992-11-28 04:04 pm

Lucifer's Dreamwalking

 

Comment here with your character in the middle of a dream while sleeping at night, and Lucifer will appear.

(He will be appearing at random to new CR, just looking around for company...!

But can also be summoned into dreams after any praying that is directed to 'angels' or to Lucifer directly.)
nottheonlytraveler: (Renegade)

[personal profile] nottheonlytraveler 2020-12-12 01:12 pm (UTC)(link)
[He rolls Sam's eyes, and the gesture is so familiar to Dean, so very much like the eye rolling Sam does in his general direction; he feels ill, watching it, and the frown on his face deepens.]

Or, you know, his family tried to save him from whatever dark path he was heading down. But sure, spin that anyway you need to in order to make yourself feel better. You're good at that, right? According to Milton, at least.

[Dean wants to shudder, revulsion running deep within him, but he swallows that urge down, the same way he swallows down a lot of words he could be saying right now.

His hands clench into fists at his sides, knuckles going bone white, when Lucifer says some shit about being "real family," and it's damn lucky some of Dean's survival instincts have gotten a kick in the teeth lately about not giving up entirely.]


Real family, huh? Real family would let Sam go, and be his own person, not use him as his own tool and weapon, douchebag!

[There's so much fear and anger, a noxious, fraught combination, like the ingredients to a ticking time bomb, lurking beneath his skin. All Dean wants is the satisfaction of violence; all he wants is to wipe off that damn expression with his own two hands.]
nottheonlytraveler: (In a manner of speaking I'm dead)

cw: violence, descriptions of blood, Dean Winchester's stupidity, etc.

[personal profile] nottheonlytraveler 2020-12-15 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
[Oh shit. Oh fuck. Dean might not want to believe in the Devil, but in one twist in the conversation, he finally finds he really does have to accept that Lucifer is a real and viable being simply from the way Lucifer goes right for the jugular, poking at the most vulnerable and raw of all the exposed nerves that make up Dean's inner core.

He doesn't see red; he sees green, bright, noxious green, and the rusted iron chains holding him to the rack. Sulfur and brimstone fill his nose, and Dean's nails are digging into his own flesh so hard, he draws blood, and every ounce of color drains from his face.

He stares at the bastard wearing Sam's face for a mask for one long, low moment, and then, without thinking, pulls back his right hand and punches him right in the face.]
nottheonlytraveler: (But its screaming in your head)

cw: low self-esteem, anxiety/depression, poor mental health, violence, torture, etc.

[personal profile] nottheonlytraveler 2020-12-17 09:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[The Devil wears Sam's face, and the Devil laughs. At him. Dean growls, both hands curled into fists by his side, but he finds that he can't actually do anything more than dig his own nails into his own skin, both of his arms suddenly weighing him down like a pair of lead pipes attached to his person, a makeshift ragdoll of scrap metal and leftover spare parts.

Dean closes his eyes, tries to grasp for that brief moment of peace that now seems like an eternity away as sulfur and rotting everything fills up his nose, practically chokes him.

He can feel the echoes of every memory from every year he spent down in the Pit. Every carve he made, every slice he stole. And every single act of torture that was done to him, too. He feels like a raw fish, like the first time Alistair flayed him down to his very essence before piecing him back together, just to do it all over again.

This is all you're good for, the darkest parts of himself whisper. The weapon, the blunt instrument, forged now literally in fire. Violence and death and destruction, this is what you've wrought.

He hates the burning sensation of tears filling up the corners of his eyes. He hates that those tears force his eyes open, into the cold, cruel gaze of a monster wearing a familiar face.]


Fuck you.

[His voice cracks, and the words come out like the broken protests of a desolate child, abandoned and forgotten on the playground.]
nottheonlytraveler: (The dreams in which I'm dying)

[personal profile] nottheonlytraveler 2020-12-19 01:55 am (UTC)(link)
[Dean thinks it's impossible for him to feel worse, and the Devil seems to take that as a personal challenge; his eyes fall shut as Lucifer explains every favor Dean seems to have done for him, how all of his choices and all of the ways in which he thought was fighting to save his brother were actually damning Sammy (and the whole world) instead.

He's caught in the epicenter of a variety of sensations; a brutal cold to the front, a scorching heat to the back, and the lead weight of all the guilt and all the self-loathing that he carries with him, increased tenfold as Satan thanks him for all the good he's done.

He opens his eyes, but he might as well be dead inside for all that they resemble those of an unseeing corpse.

He wants to tell Lucifer that he's wrong; that he's lying. But why would the Devil need or want to lie about something so truly goddamn awful?

Dean chokes on his tears and the words that he wants to say, and then he wakes up in a start.]